Let the Record Show

That I make lists while I am in class. These are all from the past week, most of them from today. maybe they'll mean something to you--or me-- in the future.

Things I'd Like to Do
Rue de Guerre
Louvre
Monet Museum
Actually sit in a cafe for hours
Have a bottle of wine with someone along the river
Run in the massive woodland areas
Take photos!
Eat a crepe
Have a conversation with a French person
Visit the Eiffel Tower at Night
Kiss under the Eiffel Tower at Night
Walk through Paris in the Rain

If I Lived in the 20s
I would want to be a flapper
But I'd probably be a political activist
I'd look awful with short hair
Flapper dresses would do nothing for my legs
I'd want to be offensive + revolutionary
I would drink...heavily
WHAT IF I WAS LIKE ZELDA? Dear God...

Questions I'd Like to Ask
Would you kiss me?
That's really all I have right now

Things I Want To Do
Go Skinny Dipping
Scuba Dive at the Great Barrier Reef
Pick Peaches in a Georgia Orchard
Live in the country
Go Sledding with friends
Build a Snowman
Ge lost in a book
Write one true sentence
Write one true paragraph
Dance in the Rain
Sleep under the Stars
Hike Kilimanjaro
Live in California
Visit Greece
Surprise Someone
Be Surprised by Someone
Fall in Love
Stay in Love
Be Inspired
Get a pedicure
Grow Out my nails
Kis and be Kissed like I/they mean it
Laugh
Sleep on the Beach
i want to see the milky way big dipper
Shoot a balloon w/ a bow + arrow

Shopping
Blazer (black)- Zara (?)
Shoes- Everywhere!

I Wish I...
Spoke up more in class
Would go eat in a cafe alone
Would ask more questions
Listened
Were less self-centered
Had a sense of direction
Had faith...in anything, or something
Was good and kind and generous
Spoke French
Smiled more
Spoke less

Fears
Open Water
Guns
The Edge of the Metro Platforms
That Love is Fleeting
That Bruno and I will never be friends
That I'll lose him completely
That I'm turning into my mother
That I don't show my dad as much love (as I should)
Living in the Suburbs
Not Finding a (my?) Purpose

Protection/Barriers
Talking too much
No Eye Contact
Angry Face
Jaw Clench
Never Showing my Writing

I Want to Learn
How to punch somebody
How to fire a gun
How to write
How to Cook
How to Sew
To Water Ski
To Scuba Dive

What I Hope For
Good Weather
Good Luck
Fairness
Honesty
The Unlikely
The Impossible

Who Am I Supposed To Be
A daughter
A sister
A student
A teacher
A friend
A best friend
A lover--one day, I hope--with actual love
An Intelligent Person
A shoulder to cry on
An advice giver
The Bubbly One
The Talker
The Crazy One
Energetic
I don't know